I was in Heathrow airport, last August, when I encountered
the first step out of my comfort zone. I
didn’t expect it. After all I am not
prejudiced, not particularly affected by stereotypes and, in fact, take steps
to ensure I surround myself with a wide variety of people. I had no idea that being the only white
person in a departure lounge of Nigerian folks would make me feel awkward,
intimidated and sweaty of palms. Do
not mistake this for fear in any way. I
simply felt different, like I could very easily make a fool of myself. All of a sudden I felt silly in what I was
wearing, my hair wasn’t cool and the newspaper I was carrying was
irrelevant. I felt that if someone had
spoken to me I might have forgotten my own name in a panic to seem normal,
un-phased, that I was used to getting flights in and out of Nigeria!! How odd!
I think coming from Scotland doesn’t help. Thinking about different cultures and ethnic
backgrounds, African is probably the least represented in Scotland. I realised, then and there, that I didn’t
know any black people at all. My family
didn’t know any black people and in reality, despite the fact I was just about
to embark on a few years living in Africa I knew absolutely nothing about the
Nigerian culture, lifestyle, language, likes or dislikes. Naïve . . . . Yes I was.
I’ve been living in Lagos for eight months now. It has changed me already. I live a nice life but I have certainly left
the comfort of ‘home’ at home. I rarely
feel bored and weeks and months fly by.
I still feel that awkward, odd feeling in many situations here but I’m
adjusting. I’m on a steep learning
curve, I’m exhausted at the end of most days and I put that down to my mind
being on constant overdrive. I’m on the
countdown to summer now (I’ll spend most of July and August in Scotland) but I
have officially signed up for a second year in Nigeria. I’ll try to share my experiences, thoughts,
feelings and philosophies through my blog from now on. Enjoy!
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